Category: Rant

• Truth = Freedom?

  Hardly. I’ve been trying to live as my true, unabashed, unfiltered self for some time now and for the most part is has absolutely served me well. I’ve been able to set boundaries in my unhealthy relationship with my mother, I’ve cut out certain toxic people, and have been focusing on MY future more, versus…

  samuraisamiam

  June 15, 2022

  caregiver, death, depression, dying, Family Dysfunction, My Shit Show Life, Rant

• It’s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

  It’s Thursday, December 30th. Two days left in this shit-show year. All signs point to 2020 and 2021 being the ramp up or trial run for whatever is coming in 2022, but I’m choosing to just try and focus on the here and now. Easier said than done, amiright? It doesn’t help that two separate…

  samuraisamiam

  December 30, 2021

  Adventures, anxiety, depression, diabetes, Exes, Family Dysfunction, mental health, My Shit Show Life, Rant, Stepmom Chronicles, Witchy Woman

  anxiety, confessions, depression, selfhelp, tarot, Therapy, year in review

• Mummy Dearest

  Raise your hand if… your mother ever took anyone home that you were flirting with at the bar your mother ever awkwardly hit on your friend in the backseat of the car while giving him a ride home your mother ever complained about you “taking her friends” away your mother ever raced to your bedroom…

  samuraisamiam

  September 20, 2021

  anxiety, caregiver, depression, Family Dysfunction, mental health, My Shit Show Life, Rant, Self Help, Shadow Work, Therapy

  anxiety, confessions, depression, dysfunctionalfamily, Self Help, selfhelp, Therapy

• Bipolar says what?

  Happy Mid-September! Nothing like some nice cool fall weather during a mental breakdown, am I right? Adjusting to home-life again has been anything but easy. Last weekend was the first weekend since being “home” that I actually spent at home, which was much needed after my slight psychotic break a few days prior. Not really…

  samuraisamiam

  September 15, 2021

  anxiety, depression, Family Dysfunction, mental health, My Shit Show Life, Rant, Self Help, self love, Therapy

  anxiety, depression, dysfunctionalfamily, Self Help, selfhelp, Therapy

• 35 Ain’t Too Bad

  Surprisingly, my birthday didn’t turn out to be the complete shit show I had anticipated. My good friend Em had a beautiful bouquet delivered, kiddo had her 1-year follow up since finding out she’s type 1 diabetic and her A1C lowered even more, and it was fairly uneventful in the hospice world.

  samuraisamiam

  June 29, 2021

  caregiver, death, depression, dying, Guilt Trips, hospice, Rant, Uncategorized

  anxiety, caregiver, caregiver burnout, depression, hospice, hospice caregiver

• Burnout is a State of Mind.

  Yep. Caregiver burnout is a real thing and I’m there. I find myself getting snippy with my terminally ill mother because I’m tired of fucking repeating myself every 2 minutes. No, she does NOT have dementia or any other memory related disease. She has COPD, which affects her heart and lungs.

  samuraisamiam

  June 21, 2021

  caregiver, death, depression, dying, Family Dysfunction, Guilt Trips, hospice, mental health, Rant

  anxiety, caregiver burnout, confessions, depression, Guilt Trips, hospice, hospice caretaker, mental health, self care, selfhelp

• Retirement Living

  It’s June 19th, I’ve officially been in Arizona about 6 weeks now, and this is the story of how I came to live in a retirement community for the remainder of my duration.

  samuraisamiam

  June 19, 2021

  Adventures, caregiver, death, dying, Guilt Trips, hospice, mental health, Rant, retirement living

  adventures in arizona, arizona, dysfunctionalfamily, Family Dysfunction, family visit, hospice, hospice care, retirement community, retirement living

• Bitches About to get Stitches

  Not really, I hate confrontation, but I sure do talk a mad game. I’ve never been in a physical altercation, I prefer evisceration by verbiage as my form of attack, and again, as a last resort because I hate confrontation.

  samuraisamiam

  June 11, 2021

  diabetes, diabetic kid, Exes, Family Dysfunction, legal advice, Rant, Stepmom Chronicles

  baby mama drama, bitter baby mama, bring it on, custody case, fathers rights

• Death is only the Beginning

  My mom is dying. Wow. That’s fucking weird to read.

  samuraisamiam

  May 17, 2021

  depression, Family Dysfunction, mental health, Rant, Uncategorized

  dysfunctionalfamily, family, hospice, palliative care, we're the fun in dysFUNctional

• It’s not me, It’s you.

  What do you do when you start to realize that your 8 year career isn’t fitting your needs anymore? How to you address issues of morality with your superiors? How can I express “You’re fucking up, bud” without any blow back?

  samuraisamiam

  March 31, 2021

  Adventures, Rant, Work, Work Life

  life after 30, new career, starting over, where to go from here