The hits just keep on coming from the ex, but the only difference this time is I can really say I don’t give a fuck. He’s dug his grave, now we wait until he lays in it and buries himself because it’s coming. Here are some things I’ve learned about myself through the mouths of…
Death is only the Beginning
My mom is dying. Wow. That’s fucking weird to read.
Organized Chaos is Cute, Right?
Today has been a fucked sort of day. Didn’t necessarily start off that way, but 6+ inches of snow and one very exhausted D later? Yeah… sure was fun. *insert eye roll here* Apparently we’re fighting over dishes. And the fact that I worked from home today. While he was out slaving away with the…
You Jump, I Jump.
Can two broken individuals come together and have a healthy relationship? Had you asked me almost 7 years ago, I would immediately say yes. Ask me today and I’ll tell you it’s a bit more complicated than that. As we get into serious relationships, things change. It’s inevitable. I’d like to think for the most…
Intentionally Writing with Intention
Writing with a purpose. Huh. I thought that was the point of writing anything in the first place – because you had something to say. But apparently I was looking at it all wrong. I need to find a sense of purpose and direction again in my life. I feel like I’m standing in the…
Honey, I’ve been shrinked.
Yesterday was a bit of a milestone day; we’ve officially owned our home for 2 years and I finally sucked it up and went to therapy for the first time. The past 5 months have just been a shit show. I’ve been miserable and making those around me miserable as well. I can’t always explain…
Familial Ties and Broken Bonds
It’s been quite some time. And Life hasn’t been kind. Friday – 3:00 a.m., April 28th, 2017. Three uniformed officers are ringing my doorbell. Once we determine that neither D or myself is getting arrested, I’m told that my youngest brother, B, 23 years old, has committed suicide. Twenty-three fucking years old. Gone, just like…
Change Starts In Your Thoughts
I’ve been struggling lately. Struggling to get a grip on reality. Struggling to suppress my ridiculous angry outbursts for no damn reason at all. Struggling to fight back feelings of loneliness and abandonment. Most of my feelings are just plain ridiculous most of the time, but that doesn’t stop the word vomit coming from my…
The Secret of Getting Ahead is Getting Started
February 1st, the start of my changing lifestyle. It started off rather interesting at about 2 am this morning. I get up to relieve myself of the 2 glasses of water right before bed, only to be met with signs of an oncoming UTI. Oh yay! I forced myself back to bed and fighting to…