Tag: hospice
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Well Past the Expiration Date
I wish she would just die already. That’s not the first time I’ve thought that and it certainly won’t be the last. The “she” in this case is my mother. I’m sure your first thought is “Wow, that’s awful, how could anyone wish that?” while your second thought is likely about how much of a…
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Here Comes the Waaambulance.
TW/Suicide . . . My mother was officially released from Hospice on Monday, 11/8/21. On Tuesday, 11/9/21, she tried taking her own life by swallowing pills. To say this is all surreal is an understatement. I received a panicked call from A, my brother’s gf, about what to do – told her to call 911…
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My Truth
I need to get this all down in writing before I become the villain of this story, which is very likely. Here’s what I know, there are 3 sides to every story. My truth, their truth, and the truth-truth. Here is my version of events and predictions for what may come: 3 days ago, on…
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This morning I had exactly 33 minutes entirely to myself. Complete quiet. I was able to sneak out on to the front porch, have a nice wake n bake, and enjoy the day’s first cup of coffee, it was great. Things have drastically changed lately. Especially this past week or so. I’ve realized I’ve reached…
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‘Murica Day and All That Shiz
Friday morning, I woke up, determined to make the day mine. Or as much mine as I could. Betsy was picking me up at 8:30am to go get Murphy to hopefully meet his new family and Parrish would be coming to town at SOME point and offered to load up the boxes from mom’s apartment…
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35 Ain’t Too Bad
Surprisingly, my birthday didn’t turn out to be the complete shit show I had anticipated. My good friend Em had a beautiful bouquet delivered, kiddo had her 1-year follow up since finding out she’s type 1 diabetic and her A1C lowered even more, and it was fairly uneventful in the hospice world.
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Tomorrow I turn 35. It’s safe to say this is another birthday I’m not looking forward to celebrating. Last year during this weekend, kiddo was in Iowa City being diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes and now this year I get to sit here and watch my mom slowly deteriorate and eventually die.
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Not Bad Luck, Just Inconvenient.
I’ve been here a time or ten before. Not *here* here, but an attempt to put my chaotic existence in writing. I suppose I kind of have with this whole journaling thing, but if these past few weeks have taught me anything, it’s that my family dynamic is super fucked up and surprisingly not normal…
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Burnout is a State of Mind.
Yep. Caregiver burnout is a real thing and I’m there. I find myself getting snippy with my terminally ill mother because I’m tired of fucking repeating myself every 2 minutes. No, she does NOT have dementia or any other memory related disease. She has COPD, which affects her heart and lungs.
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Retirement Living
It’s June 19th, I’ve officially been in Arizona about 6 weeks now, and this is the story of how I came to live in a retirement community for the remainder of my duration.
Limited Sanity 